Its been 8 monthes. And I ruined it. That idea will be stuck for a while. Its pierced. Its stucks. Its….Unremovable. For now.
mood-Kill me. Please.
I’m just so not in the mood for anything right now. I just want to lay down and die.
I’m tired of being let down. Being told something that makes me feel 110% then being told ‘nevermind’. I hate it. I don’t know why. I’m so used to it. 90% of my bad memories are memories that could have been good, but i got let down. I’m just so sick of it. Of everything.
I cried today. For the first time in a while.
I just sat there. And cried. It felt good.
Right now I just want to sit there and cry more. I honestly don’t have one thing to be happy about anymore. Nothing. Nada. None.
No one cares. Honestly. I feel like Im so alone lately. Nobody cares if I die tonight or not. I don’t even think I would care.
I’m tired of everybody. I’m tired of thinking everyone is better than everyone else. I’m tired of concited girls trying to steal that one person from me. I’m tired of everyone being in a bad mood. I’m tired of this damn recession and everyone blaming everything on it. I’m tired of being let down. I’m tired of everyone being something their not. I’m tired of everyone copying me, then calling me the poser and saying I’m copying them. I’m tired of being the blame of everything. I’m tired of being the butt of the joke. I’m tired of hearing everyones else’s ‘problems’.
I’m Tired.
J.
