I’m calmed down now. Relaxed. Chilled out man. Chilled.
I wanna scream ‘I LOVE YOU’ from the top of my lungs; But I’m afraid that someone else will hear me; You can only blame your problems on the world for so long; Before it all becomes the same old song;
New Fall Out Boy. I miss.
I’m struggling to see the better side of me
Every Avenue = <3
J
Its been 8 monthes. And I ruined it. That idea will be stuck for a while. Its pierced. Its stucks. Its….Unremovable. For now.
mood-Kill me. Please.
I’m just so not in the mood for anything right now. I just want to lay down and die.
I’m tired of being let down. Being told something that makes me feel 110% then being told ‘nevermind’. I hate it. I don’t know why. I’m so used to it. 90% of my bad memories are memories that could have been good, but i got let down. I’m just so sick of it. Of everything.
I cried today. For the first time in a while.
I just sat there. And cried. It felt good.
Right now I just want to sit there and cry more. I honestly don’t have one thing to be happy about anymore. Nothing. Nada. None.
No one cares. Honestly. I feel like Im so alone lately. Nobody cares if I die tonight or not. I don’t even think I would care.
I’m tired of everybody. I’m tired of thinking everyone is better than everyone else. I’m tired of concited girls trying to steal that one person from me. I’m tired of everyone being in a bad mood. I’m tired of this damn recession and everyone blaming everything on it. I’m tired of being let down. I’m tired of everyone being something their not. I’m tired of everyone copying me, then calling me the poser and saying I’m copying them. I’m tired of being the blame of everything. I’m tired of being the butt of the joke. I’m tired of hearing everyones else’s ‘problems’.
I’m Tired.
J.
Still finishing up Paper Towns.
Only a few pages to go.
I think I might finish it up when I’m done with this.
I started The Outsiders today. I’ve heard it’s very good. I’m only on page 3.
Tomorrow’s my last day until Break. [:
Sunday is Easter.
I asked my mommy for Where the Wild Things Are. :D
Am I too old to be finding hidden eggs in the morning? naaaah.
Day two of diet. Could be better.
Day three of Face moisturizer/acne kit for my little-to-none acne. Good.
Just random lists of things on my mind. I like it. alot. I might do this more often.
I think I’ll start a Surprise Monday[:
My friend lent me her Almost Alice CD.
I think I’ll do that now.
Then Read.
Then off to bed for the rest of the night.
Good ideas.
Have a wonderful night/morning/afternoon kiddies[:
-J<3
I think this may be one of the best picture’s I’ve ever taken…
No mood right not. Besides tired. I don’t relly have anything interesting to say. Unless you want to hear about Sex Education. I enjoy it. Until you see herpes. And hear about anal sex. And Mutual Masturbation. Ha.
It was fun though.
Also I’m finishing up what has to be the BEST book I EVER read.
Paper Towns; By John Green.
Yes; John Green. Nerdfighter, and 1/2 of the famous youtubers TheVlogBrothers.
Very Very Very VERY amazing book. I recommend it.
That’s all folks.
So long, farewell<3
-J[:
So I’m talking to my friend now, and we somehow got into the discussion of religion. So here it goes. My opinion on everything.
Religion: I’m catholic. I don’t go to church, and I’m not overly sensitve, whereas I don’t sit there and shove the bible down everyones throats.
What I believe as of right now:
1) There is a god, at least one, Maybe more.
2) Jesus and god, no not the same person.
3) Reincarnation might just possibly be real.
4) ghosts are real. Guardian Angel’s are real. I know. I have one[: (My Great-Grandmother, RIP - 1996)
5) God forgives everyone, doesn’t he?
It’s something unpredictable…But in the end it’s right…
There’s nothing wrong with it. Well, to me at least.
Everyone deserves to be equal, so so what if two guys like eachother? Or two girls? Is it REALLY that bad? How much more bad is it than a woman liking a man or vice Versa?
If God Made them that way…Then why would he sentence them to an eternity in hell for it? It makes no sense.
Anyway
I am Straight, And I support Gay Rights!
One more thing: Abortion.
I don’t really have an exact opinion on it, but here’s what I think.
It’s not okay at most times.
If you just want to get rid of it cause you don’t want it, no.
But what if your 13 and you got raped and became pregnant?
Yes, adoption is always and option, But I know I wouldn’t be able to handle knowing I brought a life into this world, and not know where it is.
I don’t know. I don’t have a big take on it.
Your life is your decision, you can do what you want, and be who you want. If you truly believe in god he won’t judge you for how you feel, or who you like.
You shouldn’t be ashamed of who you are, because somebody out there is looking for someone, you, the way you are. Not who you pretend to be.
Words from the not-so wise.
Goodnight/morning Huns (:
-J<3
Have you ever just had one of those days? You know, where you just want to lay in the grass and do nothing?
That’s the kind of day I’m having.
It’s beautiful out today. It would be so perfect. It would be even more perfect if I had someone to lay with me<3
That’s what i might do later. Just go outside, relax and take pictures. Doesn’t that just seem so perfect? Very.
I’ve realized how beautiful the landscape is. How Beauftiful Where I am is. It’s picture perfect.
Where’s my Angel?
I don’t have a mood. I’m blank. Honestly, it feel’s pretty good. Not being sad, mad. Just being content. Perfectly Okay. If only it would last. All the problems in the world would be gone.
Here’s a question: Would you rather have all bad things gone, all good things gone, and just be content? Or would you rather it stayed the way it is now?
I honestly couldn’t answer, cause I Honestly don’t know.
Where would I go, Where I would be just alone?
Boston, New York City. My two favorite places.
If I could just wander aimlessly. It would be good. I would enjoy it.
Just staring at all the wonders of the world.
Taking pictures, Documenting my experiences. Other people understanding and seeing how wonderful the world really is. I want my grandchildren, and their grandchildren to be able to see such wonders. Respect, Recycle. I want their world to be as perfect as it was when it was just created.
If I could go back….
Oh, what I would do. So many things. So many places.
Was the sky always blue? Was the grass always green? Well sure, Scientist’s can figure it out, but is it always correct?
Can you always 100% Trust Science?
I’ll ponder.
Love always and forever,
-J<3
Here we go. Two posts one day.
Alot is on my mind at this current moment in time. Well, not alot. But one thing. And it hurts, honestly. It hurts alot.
Have you ever talked to a guy that you like when he starts talking about a girl he likes, and it describes your relationship so perfectly you think he’s talking about you? You get your hopes up, play it cool, then he tells you it’s someone else?
Well if you haven’t, consider yourself lucky. It Hurts. Alot. Deep Down inside.
So long and goodnight….</3
This is something I can’t tell anyone. Not my mom, not my bestfriend. It’s just not comfortable for me. I hate talking about my pain. It makes me feel like a pansy, like it’s stupid. Because i know it is. I know it doesn’t matter.
There are plenty of fish in the sea, But I only want you<3
I see why people hate love, but that doesn’t make me hate it, Does it? I don’t. I Love love.
The thing about me and love, I can tell. The moment i see someone, you. The moment i first talked to you. I felt it. I may be mistaken, as i have been one time in my life. But this time I think I’m sure. I may be stupid, and you may not care. But I do. You called me Amazing today. And it made my heart. Then you said you loved her, and it broke it. But I’m not giving up on you, not yet. Not now. You need me. I need you. My life would be horrible without you. You don’t even know. I just may be some form of quick entertain me, someone to talk to now and again to you, but to me, your lasting entertainment, someone I Always want to talk to.
I may sound like a creeper. But I don’t care.
It’s how I feel. You can call me what you may, but that’s not going to change my feelings. Now is it?
Goodnight Darlings, See you in the AM(:
-JLS<3
